May 7

I’m so tired of:

feeling sick; panic attacks; wanting to cry & not being able to; missing you; being a hypocrite; not sleeping; worrying about my sanity; social anxiety & shyness; not caring; this place; never speaking more than >50 words a day with you; selfishness; not having confidence; this intense, unidentifiable need within me that claws at my insides every second of every day.