Color me blue; I’m lost in you.

Standing in front of all those boys this morning, I couldn’t stop shaking. Cindy had given me the main role- the victim role- in today’s sociodrama.
To say that I was nervous was more than an understatement.
Blurting out my first few lines was difficult, but soon it became easier.
I sort of fell into the role; like taking a flying leap from a building, and landing in someone else’s shoes, which are conveniently placed underneath you.
It’s hard to explain what it’s like to fully inhabit another character. My sense of self ceased to exist; I was no longer Alexa.
I was Jenni, a shy, timid girl who had been taken advantage of.
Taking myself by complete surprise, I even began to cry at one point.
Statements like, “You’re such a slut, stay away from me”, “Trust me Jenni, I won’t hurt you”, “Why would you do that?”, and “You should just kill yourself” were being shot at me from every angle, and I felt myself being overwhelmed with emotions that were not my own.
I really learned a lot about myself today, and I know that I will keep learning & discovering more of who I am through this wonderful group that I have found.
RYOT Against Rape And All Other Forms Of Abuse has/is/will changed/changing/change my life.